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Count Hans Axel von Fersen
27 January 2008 @ 10:42 pm
Axel had never particularly been against the idea, as such. It was more that he couldn't entirely see the point. Looking back on his life, he couldn't say he was exactly sorry to have missed out; he didn't know many people who had found what you might describe as wedded bliss. Most people, in the end, when it came down to it, ended up sneaking around, participating in the ridiculous charade of hiding their real love affairs from their husband and wife. He was glad, on the whole, that he'd been spared that particular nonsense.

Oh, he'd asked Eleanore, yes. After a while. Loneliness could get too much, sometimes, and he and Eleanore had always been such good friends. He couldn't, though, honestly say that her refusal had broken his heart. Bruised his pride, yes, but then – it was probably a blessing. It would have made neither of them happy, in the end. It never did. Look at Sofie. Marriage had not exactly brought boundless happiness to his little sister, had it?

And her. What had it given to her? Married at fourteen to a man she'd never met before... It could hardly be argued that her marriage had brought her very much in the way of either love or fortune. Wealth, yes, but she had hardly been short of that in her own life before, and power, of a sort... But she had never wanted to be a queen.

Fifteen years dead now, and every day he still thinks of her. Is that true love? He isn't sure, but it must be something of the sort. In other circumstances, in a different life, could she have been someone he could marry? But this is something he can't know, the what-ifs and what-could-have-beens, and thinking about them only serves to make his head ache.
 
 
Count Hans Axel von Fersen
27 January 2008 @ 10:40 pm
"Fersen? Oh, you mean Le Beau? Yes, I remember him, of course. Very charming young man. I was young too, then, of course. Spent a lot of his time abroad, you know, so he wasn't always here, but there was always a little flutter of excitement around when he was. Very beautiful, of course, back then. I met him first when we were very young, I can't have been older than seventeen and he not much more... I had a blue dress that I loved. Silver threads in the sleeves. It was a ball of some type, I can't recall the details... My older sisters were there, I remember that. Yes, I let him kiss me. His friend, too. Well, I was young! I was pretty, too, then. If you can't have a little fun when you're young, then when can you?

Yes, of course, I heard the rumours, about the Queen of France. A terrible thing, wasn't it, what happened to her? Very sad. Everybody here thought so. Well, of course, it was an open secret, really. I was close to his sister, as it happens, poor Sofie, and she was terribly worried about him, I know that. But then he came to a bad end himself, didn't he? Oh, very sad. No, and it was all hushed up rather. I suppose... what can you do, when it's something like that? They could hardly arrest everybody in the crowd, and there's no way to pin the blame on a singe person when it happens that way... He'd become very unpopular, of course. In later life. I suppose he represented a way of life that had come to be... disliked. It was very distressing, though, of course. A terrible thing. Poor Sofie. But, oh, he was a very strange man, certainly. A very strange life."
 
 
 
 

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